About Face

Before we get to my post, I just wanted to give a huge shout to my friend Scott, who was baptized this evening. Way to go, man. We're very proud of you! If you missed it, take a minute to watch the video clip and share in the moment. Go ahead and do it now- I'll wait.



Let's get started. I want to say I'm sorry to my family and friends. The past week has been really tough on me and I've handled it pretty poorly, both online and offline. The items I'm up against weren't even very serious in the scheme of things, but it's just been several issues aggregating together. If it were a test, I'm afraid I'd have failed.

Between messages from dear friends, a heart to heart with my wife, and worship tonight, the Lord gently reminded me of what's important. My problem is that I wasn't running to Him when things were boxing me in. I was selfishly trying to process through it under my own power. I never once thought about how my family must have felt while I was "knotted up"- or that they too, share in my burdens. The results were sub-optimal. My wife and kids were upset with me, my stress level went through the roof and the problems didn't go away. Like a dog returning to his vomit, I keep returning to this lesson: I need to repent and surrender to Him. I need to chill out...


2 Peter 2:22 (New International Version)

Of them the proverbs are true: "A dog returns to its vomit,"[a]and, "A sow that is washed goes back to her wallowing in the mud."

Webster's definition of "Repent"

1 : to turn from sin and dedicate oneself to the amendment of one's life
2 a : to feel regret or contrition b : to change one's mind

Lord, I'm sorry that when it comes to day to day issues and activities, I almost always fall on my face. It's easy for me to intellectually understand what needs to occur in order to live in an upstanding way. However, it's difficult to apply it- and that's key. Please grant me your grace to cover my faults. Please give me strength to rise up and pass your next test. I long to please you, my heart is inclined to you. I love you. Thank you for your covering. You know me inside and out and you understand the needs my spirit has, which my heart and body cannot wholly articulate right now. Thank you for everything, father. Thank you for life. Amen.

Good Night