Reaffirmation Day

Today was a pretty good day; free from stress and tribulation for the most part. However, there were a couple of special events that transpired, which are memorable. First, I took a Sun Solaris Admin I class online and passed the optional test.

This is a big deal for me, because I typically don't like tests and the whole time I could hear negative thoughts bouncing around inside my head. "You're not smart enough", "You're too slow", "You won't 'get it'" and "You're going to fail". In spite of these, I reviewed some of the test questions and then passed the test. I contacted my wife and shared the news of my small victory. She was complimenting me left and right. It felt great, but inside I felt unworthy.

Fast forward to this evening. My wife and I are talking about our days at work, while at the grocery store. She got to talking about her day and some comments which were made about me. It seems our pastor complimented my intellect and abilities to another person and my wife just happened to be within earshot. It was baffling to me; "Our pastor feels that way... about me?" These compliments warmed my heart and I was humbled. How can a loser like me, whom has failed more times than I've succeeded be deserving of praise?

Later on, after a healthy hour of fellowship with my WSFC brothers, some men in our group complimented my contributions to the group (one of which called me last night and said some encouraging words) and appreciated my intellect, articulation and personality. Truly humbling.

God has sent reminders to me all throughout the day that there's something good in me and people can see it- it's tangible. I've simply not shared in those same beliefs and observations very much. However, I think that needs to change. Although I was a flawed creature, marred in failure from birth, I'm a new creature in Christ. My old man has been put to death and the new man is being perfected each day I walk with Jesus.

2 Corinthians 5:17 (New International Version)

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

Hopefully, the worldly programming in my head will soon match what God is doing in my life. I look forward to experiencing the joy that comes from being secure in whom God created me to be. "Life 2.0"

Good Night