Meh.

Even though I'm a Christian, I still have days where my experiences are clearly not on the Mountaintop. But, they're not necessarily "in the ditch" either. Days like today are somewhere in the middle; neither good, nor bad, but exhausting. Be it unexpected stress at work, or attitude and battles with the children and their schoolwork or chores, some days are tempered to the point where you just feel... meh.

It all started when I finally received a letter from a department I'd applied for several weeks ago. Uh oh, a letter. That can't be good. No one receives a job offer with a letter. It turns out I was right. The job which would have been a positive move (at least on paper) was offered to someone else. "Why wasn't I good enough?" I thought.

A good point of today came about 2PM, when the Legislature's 2010 Session came to a close. Sine Die. The working late into the night and coming in on weekends will taper off and the IS department will soon focus on project work and settle into more predictable routines.

Then, the finale of the day? Drama with the kids. The house was destroyed and yet no one wanted to step in and do their chores or give a helping hand to whip the home back into shape. There was a lot of energy expelled to get things done; dinner prepared, cleaned up and then pushing through the bedtime rituals. I'm simply wiped out. Each day is a gift from our Lord, but I'm just not in a grateful, thankful place as I sit here and write this. That really needs to change. Not a lot of scripture tonight, but let's meditate on this one:

1 Thessalonians 5:18 (New International Version)

Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

Good Night