Sunday, February 28, 2010

Busy, productive Sunday

Oh my this was a busy day! After the alarm went off this morning, it was off to Church for a couple of services worth of slides support. Then a quick spot of IT admin support for their server, picking up a laptop and dropping off some donated items and finally off to a Birthday luncheon with my in-laws. After some great pizza and whoopie pie cake for dessert, it was home for the rest of the afternoon.

Once home, a quick change of clothes brought on some hefty yard work (cutting out blackberry thickets and walnut saplings which had grown quite large over the last year) and assisting our neighbor pull out an old fence post, so a new one could be installed nearby for our shared fence line. After breaking and fixing a chainsaw and using more muscles than I knew I had, it was dusk. Time to stop (although there was still more work to do).

Once inside, it was time for a quick shower and then a light snack for the kids for dinner (Did I mentioned we had a lot of Padington's pizza just a few hours before?). Finally, I had a few minutes to blog, as the kids got ready for bed and I kicked off a Time Machine backup for the laptop I'm going to be rebuilding throughout the course of the next day. Thank God for the air in my lungs and the ability to sustain me through busy days like these.

Thank God for the rest I'm about to soon receive!

Philippians 4:13 (New International Version)


I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Good Night

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Yeah! (Children's Baptism)

Tonight was very important. My youngest children decided to give their lives to Jesus and follow Him! We were so very proud of their decision- it was a huge step in their lives that I hope they'll remember as they begin their journey with the Lord in their lives.

Matthew 28:19

Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in[a] the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit

Mark 16:16


Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned

John 3:5

Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit."

Good Night

Friday, February 26, 2010

Rebellion

Today I was listening to a RESTORED podcast about rebellion. During the lesson, my thoughts drifted to areas in my own life, which have sometimes hidden rebellion as subtle negative thoughts or actions toward bosses, my own leadership in the home, etc. Rebellion began with Lucifer; when he became prideful and rebellious toward God. He wanted to be God and obviously didn't have respect for the position and authority God has and IS. He wanted the glory for himself and clearly rebelled against the established and rightful leadership.

How often have we criticized our Government? Supervisors? Church leaders? Teachers? Trainers? Parents? We need to have respect for the leaders that God has placed in our lives. I know that these are imperfect people. However, God has given them authority over us for a reason. Note, this doesn't mean to put up with abuse and become a doormat. Think about that while I share some prayers and quotes for our leaders:

* Prayer for the Nation by Billy Graham
Our Father and God, we praise You for Your goodness to our nation, giving us blessings far beyond what we deserve. Yet we know all is not right with America. We deeply need a moral and spiritual renewal to help us meet the many problems we face. Convict us of sin. Help us to turn to You in repentance and faith. Set our feet on the path of Your righteousness and peace.

We pray today for our nation's leaders. Give them the wisdom to know what is right, and the courage to do it.

You have said, "Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord." May this be a new era for America, as we humble ourselves and acknowledge You alone as our Savior and Lord.

This we pray in Your holy name, Amen

* Reprinted from a prayer book used by George Washington
Morning Prayer
Almighty God, and most merciful father, who didst command the children of Israel to offer daily sacrifice to thee, that thereby they might glorify and praise thee for thy protection both night and day; receive , O Lord, my morning sacrifice which I now offer up to thee; I yield thee humble and hearty thanks that thou has preserved me from the dangers of the night past, and brought me to the light of this day, and the comforts thereof, a day which is consecrated to thine own service and for thine own honor. Let my heart, therefore, Gracious God, be so affected with the glory and majesty of it, that I may not do mine own works, but wait on thee, and discharge those weighty duties thou requirest of me; and since thou art a God of pure eyes, and wilt be sanctified in all who draw near unto thee, who doest not regard the sacrifice of fools, nor hear sinners who tread in the courts, pardon, I beseech thee, my sins, remove them from thy presence, as far as the east is from the west, and accept of me for the merits of thy son Jesus Christ, that when I come into thy temple, and compass thine alter, my prayers may come before thee as incense; and as thou wouldst hear me calling upon thee in my prayers, so give me grace to hear thee calling on me in thy word, that it may be wisdom, righteousness, reconciliation and peace to the saving of my soul in the day of the Lord Jesus. Grant that I may hear it with reverence, receive it with meekness, mingle it with faith, and that it may accomplish in me, gracious God, the good work for which thou has sent it. Bless my family, kindred, friends and country, be our God & guide this day and for ever for his sake, who lay down in the Grave and arose again for us, Jesus Christ our Lord, Amen.

* Reprinted from a prayer book used by George Washington

Evening Prayer
O most Glorious God, in Jesus Christ my merciful and loving father, I acknowledge and confess my guilt, in the weak and imperfect performance of the duties of this day. I have called on thee for pardon and forgiveness of sins, but so coldly and carelessly, that my prayers are become my sin and stand in need of pardon. I have heard thy holy word, but with such deadness of spirit that I have been an unprofitable and forgetful hearer, so that, O Lord, thou I have done thy work, yet it hath been so negligently that I may rather expect a curse than a blessing from thee. But, O God, who art rich in mercy and plenteous in redemption, mark not, I beseech thee, what I have done amiss; remember that I am but dust, and remit my transgressions, negligences & ignorances, and cover them all with the absolute obedience of thy dear Son, that those sacrifices which I have offered may be accepted by thee, in and for the sacrifice of Jesus Christ offered upon the cross for me; for his sake, ease me of the burden of my sins, and give me grace that by the call of the Gospel I may rise from the slumber of sin into newness of life. Let me live according to those holy rules which thou has this day prescribed in thy holy word; make me to know what is acceptable in thy sight, and therein to delight, open the eyes of my understanding, and help me thoroughly to examine myself concerning my knowledge, faith and repentance, increase my faith, and direct me to the true object Jesus Christ the way, the truth and the life, bless O Lord, all the people of this land, from the highest to the lowest, particularly those whom thou hast appointed to rule over us in church & state. Continue thy goodness to me this night. These weak petitions I humbly implore thee to accept and answer for the sake of thy Dear Son Jesus Christ our Lord, Amen.

* Ephesians 3:14-19
For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power though his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-- that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.(NIV)

* Colossians 1:9-11

For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding. And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God...(NIV)

Good Night

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Meh.

Even though I'm a Christian, I still have days where my experiences are clearly not on the Mountaintop. But, they're not necessarily "in the ditch" either. Days like today are somewhere in the middle; neither good, nor bad, but exhausting. Be it unexpected stress at work, or attitude and battles with the children and their schoolwork or chores, some days are tempered to the point where you just feel... meh.

It all started when I finally received a letter from a department I'd applied for several weeks ago. Uh oh, a letter. That can't be good. No one receives a job offer with a letter. It turns out I was right. The job which would have been a positive move (at least on paper) was offered to someone else. "Why wasn't I good enough?" I thought.

A good point of today came about 2PM, when the Legislature's 2010 Session came to a close. Sine Die. The working late into the night and coming in on weekends will taper off and the IS department will soon focus on project work and settle into more predictable routines.

Then, the finale of the day? Drama with the kids. The house was destroyed and yet no one wanted to step in and do their chores or give a helping hand to whip the home back into shape. There was a lot of energy expelled to get things done; dinner prepared, cleaned up and then pushing through the bedtime rituals. I'm simply wiped out. Each day is a gift from our Lord, but I'm just not in a grateful, thankful place as I sit here and write this. That really needs to change. Not a lot of scripture tonight, but let's meditate on this one:

1 Thessalonians 5:18 (New International Version)


Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

Good Night

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Ugh! Wednesday

It's been one heck of a day. We were all up early and half of us were out the door by Seven o'clock (the other half left at nine). I was off to a Cisco dog and pony show while my daughter was off to the beach on a field trip to the Oregon Coast Aquarium. The other kids headed off to school and my wife to work, leaving our cat and watch dog at home until later in the afternoon.

My trek began with three bus rides and a brisk walk to the hotel where my training seminar was being held. It was a good seminar, showing me the latest advances in some of Cisco's networking families of products. I think everyone involved in technology should attend one of these types of things each year, to catch up on the advances made, that you wouldn't normally see in your daily work. It was informative, but overwhelming. I was ready to head home at 3:45PM.

After walking to the nearest bus stop, I watched as the bus drove past; I simply didn't make the bus in time. So, I walked all the way back to work, if only to touch base and check in before leaving for the day. After chatting with my boss for a few minutes, a coworker whom was off shift offered me a ride home. Shortly after 5 o'clock, I was home. At last the rest of my family came home and we learned about the various animals at the beach and had a family dinner. After some after-dinner drama, we ended up putting the kids to bed and calling it an early night. Here we sit.

I'm not sure of what the rest of evening holds for me and my wife, but I'm happy that we're facing a couple of hours of downtime. I know I've said this before, but it's important to remember to rest. As for me, I think I'll try to cuddle up with my bride and see if she'll reciprocate the affection tonight. Life's been beating us up lately (me mentally and she physically) and we're feeling a bit estranged. I pray she draws near to me instead of rejecting me.

One thing for sure is that when we need Him, God is always there and will never reject us when we're feeling sad, lonely, etc.

James 4:8 (New International Version)

Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

Good Night

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

It's Good To Have A Support System

Tonight's Men's Bible study was awesome. Again, I felt unprepared in the studies for the week, but after the small groups got together and the conversations started, I found that we were all plugging into the Word and it was a great experience.

There was a new guy in our group (whom actually started last week) and he was sharing that he and his family were at a set of crossroads. He was recently laid off and he's looking at some major changes in the next couple of weeks, but didn't know what to do. Each of us shared that we also had experiences such as this and shared our stories of going through things- and how God always showed up. It was a time of encouragement and support for all.

Surrounding yourself with fellow believers for support is so very important!

Proverbs 27:17 (New International Version)


As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 (New International Version)


Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work:

If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!

Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone?

Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

Good Night

Monday, February 22, 2010

It's late and I'm Tired

I'm not sure of what to say tonight. It was a long day at work, as the Senate ran into the evening and I had to be there until the conclusion of the floor session. It was productive, because I finished a task which was hanging on the task list for some time now. It will be great to put the finished product into motion in the upcoming days.

My wife could sure use your prayers. She's been fighting sickness for the past week and I suspect she's got a sinus infection. She can't get into the Dr. for several more days and her head is constantly in pain. She's using a Netti pot type device and it also taking sinus medication, so hopefully that will help, or at least make things bearable until she can get placed on antibiotics. I guess I just ask for prayer and covering for the whole family. It's going to be an eventful week and we all need God's mercy and kindness to get through it successfully.

Good Night

Sunday, February 21, 2010

New Week, New Attitude


This will be short tonight. Today I learned that anger is like a doorway. If it's unchecked, it gives the devil an opening to my life. At the same time, when the door opens to the enemy, it can close on the Holy Spirit. I've seen evidence of this happening in my own life, with situations with the kids or even my wife when we don't see eye to eye.

It really struck a nerve. I somehow (with the help of Jesus- that's how!) need to live out what Paul says in Ephesians 4.

Ephesians 4:26-32 (New International Version)

26"In your anger do not sin"[a]: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27and do not give the devil a foothold. 28He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.

29Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. 30And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. 32Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Good night

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Is it Really Clean?


Today, after working for half a day at my job, I was released for the remainder of the weekend. After getting a late start, I thought it would be nice to wash the truck for my wife. It's been a couple of months since it was last cleansed and we're in a break from the rain, for at least a few more days. It was filthy and overdue for a wash.

After getting $20 of supplies from True Value (That's 2 auto-car washes, so I hope to get 5-6 home washes worth, to make it worth it) I hooked up the pressure washer, got a bucket and some rags and went to town. What a transformation! "Lindsay" (yes, my wife named the car) was sparkling like new within about an hour of sunset.

As daylight drew to a close and I packed up the supplies for the exterior, my focus shifted to the car's interior, where a plethora of trash and dust bunnies reside. I was able to wipe down the superficial things quickly, like the top of the dash, but I never ended up getting in down deep, where the real dirt was. The end result? By nightfall, I had a gorgeous truck on the outside, but it was still a miss inside.

Now, check this out.

This past week I have had some serious struggles with my oldest son; I really want to view him as a fine, upstanding young man, but I see so many things in him that drive me nuts. Constant reminding to turn off lights, pick up things, close doors, etc. Stuff I'd hope he'd have mastered since the age of four. Nope. Add to that the growling and acting grumpily if I ask for his help, or for him to do anything other than what he sets his mind to do. Being a father to a teenager just isn't fun sometimes, at least for me. Often I harbor resentment toward him, because he simply will not listen to me, or it appears he goes out of his way to try and do exactly what I ask him not to do. Maybe that's most teenage boys? Sometimes when we argue, I become the mature equivalent of a teenager myself, sinking to his level and saying and doing things that Jesus wouldn't approve of.

The soreness of attitude between he and I definitely impacts my relationship with my wife. She sees things escalate between my son and I, and more often than not we start to drift apart as well. Everyone loses. I'm asking the Lord to help with this, because I can't fix this in my own strength.

Now, Fast forward to last night.

I was at a Men's conference in Salem with some of the guys from my church. It was really great to get together and learn from the guest speaker. He said so many things that pertain to being a Godly Man of Action and I took notes, so I'm sure to blog about them at a later date. But it was during worship music at that event that I make my next point.

There was a man there whom was singing with the rest of us, only he was extremely loud and way off key. It was so pronounced that at times I was distracted and began to think judgmental thoughts. "Goodness, is he serious!?" "Can't he tell he's way off?!" Then it hit me; here we were singing in a gathering and outwardly, I was singing better than he was, but inwardly my heart was not in the right place. God no doubt saw us both for who we were at that point and I've got to tell you, that man was shouting to the Lord in praise and my heart was distracted and ugly. Whom was the better man here? I think we'll both agree it wasn't me. During the songs, I repented and asked that Lord willing, he allow that man to keep belting it out for the glory of God and to turn my heart into praise as well.

Now let's get back to the car.

It was clean outside this afternoon, but was still a mess inside. I just realized that sometimes I'm 'clean' outside, but inside there is still a ton of cleanup and restoration that must take place. I'll be able to clean the car out tomorrow, but only Jesus Christ can take up residence in my heart and transform my likeness to His, from the inside out.

Matthew 15:1-20 (New International Version)

Clean and Unclean

1Then some Pharisees and teachers of the law came to Jesus from Jerusalem and asked, 2"Why do your disciples break the tradition of the elders? They don't wash their hands before they eat!"

3Jesus replied, "And why do you break the command of God for the sake of your tradition? 4For God said, 'Honor your father and mother'[a] and 'Anyone who curses his father or mother must be put to death.'[b] 5But you say that if a man says to his father or mother, 'Whatever help you might otherwise have received from me is a gift devoted to God,' 6he is not to 'honor his father[c]' with it. Thus you nullify the word of God for the sake of your tradition. 7You hypocrites! Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you:
8" 'These people honor me with their lips,
but their hearts are far from me.
9They worship me in vain;
their teachings are but rules taught by men.'[d]"

10Jesus called the crowd to him and said, "Listen and understand. 11What goes into a man's mouth does not make him 'unclean,' but what comes out of his mouth, that is what makes him 'unclean.' "

12Then the disciples came to him and asked, "Do you know that the Pharisees were offended when they heard this?"

13He replied, "Every plant that my heavenly Father has not planted will be pulled up by the roots. 14Leave them; they are blind guides.[e] If a blind man leads a blind man, both will fall into a pit."

15Peter said, "Explain the parable to us."

16"Are you still so dull?" Jesus asked them. 17"Don't you see that whatever enters the mouth goes into the stomach and then out of the body? 18But the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart, and these make a man 'unclean.' 19For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. 20These are what make a man 'unclean'; but eating with unwashed hands does not make him 'unclean.' "

Matthew 23:25-28 (New International Version)


25"Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You clean the outside of the cup and dish, but inside they are full of greed and self-indulgence. 26Blind Pharisee! First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean.

27"Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of dead men's bones and everything unclean. 28In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.

Good Night

Friday, February 19, 2010

6th Annual Salem Men's Conference

I'm so glad my wife signed me up for the Men's Conference in Salem this year. Our Tuesday evening Bible Study class has talked about the upcoming event and I've spoken with my friend Scott about it, but I wasn't sure if I wanted to actually go. God bless my wife for simply signing me up behind my back. It was totally worth it tonight!

The totality of the evening could be summed up in the following: "Men, take Action!" The talking points were designed to get Christian men into the Word, regularly praying to God and overcoming the world and flesh in order to make a positive difference in their sphere of influence. In doing this, their lives can change. Their families can change. Eventually, the World could change.

The issued challenge was to spend 2 minutes in prayer each day and an honest 5 minutes in the Bible. It seems small, but how many of us (myself included) spend more time, or know more about other topics than the spoken Word of God?

Good night

Thursday, February 18, 2010

God is Sovereign

Today, I was listening to the Daily Audio Bible podcast and we're well into the book of Leviticus. It's bloody, gruesome and honestly sometimes I don't get it. Brian Hardin (creator and narrator of the DAB) indicated that sometimes it's the very place where people whom begin reading the Bible, put it down and stop. I know- I've done it.

Sometimes, I find myself being absolutely disgusted at the thought of how things were done in the desert, when the children of Israel had to begin atoning for their sins. So many sacrifices were required and sometimes it seems as though it's not fair to the poor animals; what did they do? Why is so much bloodshed required? In our post-Christ Western culture, it can be difficult to understand what was necessary.

The Israelites were in the Desert when God shared his requirements for the right way of living through His servant Moses. Keep in mind that Jesus had not yet come to offer the perfect sacrifice and Salvation. So, to cover their sins, a great price was necessary. Something had to die, so that they could live in the presence of God. Sacrifices were frequently offered because the animals could not offer the lasting covering that would only come through the perfect blood of Jesus Christ.

God is perfect and Holy. No matter what we think is right or wrong, we need to understand that His way is the best, true and right way. Leviticus adds weight to the price of sin. It also increases the freedom we experience in Jesus' sacrifice. We don't have to live that old way anymore- we're free!

Think about that.

Good Night

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

It's important to get into the Word

I have to say that I love my iPhone. Sure, it's a cool device for playing games, checking email, surfing the web while at a restaurant, etc. However, it's one great iPod. I rely on it each weekday for listening to the Daily Audio Bible podcast while I'm commuting to work.

When I don't choose to listen (or simply miss the opportunity) to the Word of God, it's like I'm misaligned in every way, for the remainder of the day. I've had days spent in the Word and days without and I've got to tell you, I need God in my life each day.

Let this post tonight be a simple encouragement to get into the Bible everyday. If you can't commit to each day, try the weekdays first. There are several 1 year Bible programs, both in printed and in audio format. Plug into the Word! I've placed a couple of links for you to get started below:

1 Year Daily Audio Bible


1 Year Walk through the Bible - Text

Good Night!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

I missed my Men's Group!

Tonight would have been 1 month since I had last attended my Men's Bible study. Due to work, health and just general fatigue, I've been missing for a few weeks. Now I'm back and so very grateful.

It was sort of a freestyle event tonight; we opened with prayer and welcomed a new guy to our group. Then we just sort of took off in fellowship. We talked about Paul and his experiences in The Acts. We spoke of Job's trials in the book of Job. We spoke of how things applied in our lives that week. The common theme was the focus on the Lord, despite outward circumstances. It was just a great time of bonding, nourishing words and shared insight. Priceless.

I left feeling as though the Disciples must have; each being in a different place in their walk with the Lord and each having their own views on how the Word spoke to them. Each one sharing of themselves openly with the group. It's great to be back.

Good night

Monday, February 15, 2010

It's been 50 days in a row!

I'm excited to share that it's been 50 days of blogging in a row! I never thought I'd stick with it consistently (although I'd hoped I might). So far, we've been through ups and downs of my daily walk through life. Some days, I can feel God's presence and I'm filled with inspiration and wisdom. While others, like this past week of family illness, I'm not certain what to say, think or how to apply the Word into these situations. Sometimes, I feel alone and lost, just as I did before I was saved. I'm certainly a work in progress.

My hope is that through communication with our Lord, that he will steer me through and unfold all of this stuff as we move along- growing me (and effectively reprogramming my ways of thinking and doing) in the process. I can't wait to reflect on personal struggles with my flesh and mind and see how God comes through in ways I can't always see at the time. I can't wait to witness His greatness and offer up thanksgiving and praise all throughout 2010.

1 Peter 1:14 (New International Version)


As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance.

Romans 12:2 (New International Version)


Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Philippians 1:4-6 (New International Version)


In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Let's keep going, shall we?

Good Night

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Sickness is taking it's toll

I know I've been rambling on about Briana's sickness these past few days. I've prayed about it, hoped and so far, Nada. Her fever has spiked, dropped, raised and lowered for four days straight. Today, she went to the doctor and the diagnosis was pneumonia. I couldn't believe it. She's on medication now and hopefully, her lungs will begin to clear up in a couple of days and her fever diminish.

Now, my wife is sick. We're not even through with this first wave of illness, and my wife's now offline. The boys have or recently had colds, so I don't know if they're immune or not, and I'm not feeling so good. However, I have to keep going, no matter what. The family needs me to be healthy and my work is at the all time busiest part of the year in Legislative session. Absence isn't something to take lightly. Why can't we achieve longstanding health? It seems like someone is sick in our house every other week.

Please continue to life our family up in prayer. The constant bombardment of physical sickness is really hard to deal with, when multiple people are all sick at once, yet layered in a way to show little sign of improvement anytime within the next several days and they need you to care for them. Add to this the everyday pressures of work, etc. It's hard to bear.

Good Night

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Still Going...

With all that's going on with my daughter and the flu, we've been pretty well reclusive in the house these past few days. I've seen many facebook posts and Twitter tweets of friends and family gearing up for the Valentine's holiday and going all over, but we're focused on getting (and staying) well.

I miss my church! I've not been at all this week; missed Bible study, missed Wednesday night IS work (well, that one was a choice) and then no service tonight. We're keeping my daughter medicated and hopefully the sleep tonight will finally break her fever. Otherwise, it's off to the Pediatrician tomorrow.

Thank you for your continued prayers,

Good Night

Friday, February 12, 2010

The Battle Continues...

My baby is still sick. She's been fighting a 101-104 degree temperature all day, for the second day in a row. The Pediatrician said that I can give her Tylenol for the fever and pain, but to keep fluids in her- not to allow her to become too dehydrated. So, it's been a day of saltine crackers, water, juice and Pedialyte. Poor baby. Please continue to pray for her complete healing. And, please pray that the remaining members of our house do not get sick. The Flu stinks...

I know this has to break the heart of our Father. He never designed us to live in sickness, but I thank Him for his wisdom to in-build an immune system that get's stronger as we grow up. I also thank Him for allowing our Doctors to increase in knowledge enough to create medications and vaccines to help aid our suffering in this fallen world. Thank you, Jesus.

God Bless,

Good Night

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Poor Sick Baby

My baby is sick. The whole family has been passing a cold around the past few weeks, but my daughter has what appears to be the flu tonight. We've all been vaccinated for seasonal and H1N1, but her high fever and aches sure don't seem much like a cold. If she doesn't start feeling better tomorrow, or the fever persists, I'll be taking her in the the Doctor for sure. I hate it when my kids are sick and I'm powerless to help them. I can pray, so that's not exactly powerless, is it? Where's my faith? I need to remind myself of the man whom had a sick daughter whom ended up dying, while he begged Jesus to come and heal her. I know my baby is going to be alright. God is going to show up. He always does, right?


Mark 5:21-24, 35-43


When Jesus had again crossed over by boat to the other side of the lake, a large crowd gathered around him while he was by the lake. Then one of the synagogue rulers, named Jairus, came there. Seeing Jesus, he fell at his feet and pleaded earnestly with him, "My little daughter is dying. Please come and put your hands on her so that she will be healed and live." So Jesus went with him.

While Jesus was still speaking, some men came from the house of Jairus, the synagogue ruler. "Your daughter is dead," they said. "Why bother the teacher any more?" Ignoring what they said, Jesus told the synagogue ruler, "Don't be afraid; just believe." He did not let anyone follow him except Peter, James and John the brother of James. When they came to the home of the synagogue ruler, Jesus saw a commotion, with people crying and wailing loudly. He went in and said to them, "Why all this commotion and wailing? The child is not dead but asleep." But they laughed at him.

After he put them all out, he took the child's father and mother and the disciples who were with him, and went in where the child was. He took her by the hand and said to her, "Talitha koum!" (which means, "Little girl, I say to you, get up!" ). Immediately the girl stood up and walked around (she was twelve years old). At this they were completely astonished. He gave strict orders not to let anyone know about this, and told them to give her something to eat.


Please remember my daughter (my whole family's health actually) in your prayers tonight. Miracles and healing aren't limited to biblical times, they can happen right here and now, if you believe and pray.

Good Night

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Tax Time

Here it is well after 11 PM and I'm just getting to my blog. I've been doing our taxes for the past couple of hours; you know the drill. Gather up every form in the world, read through lines of gibberish and naively follow each and every prompt in the software. Finally, things come into focus and bam! We are getting a Federal refund. But wait, this year's refund is far less than last year's- why? After digging, I find a mistake and correct it. Hmmm, that's a little better. Then, something else is missing and the refund shrivels. Yet another calculation and we're back in great shape. This is tiring! I just want to ensure that we're getting to keep what is rightfully ours and we're able to pay what's rightfully the Government's.

That little phrase reminds me of Jesus and the Pharisees in the New Testament. He was so sharp! I love it when he shuts them down!

Matthew 22:15-22 (New International Version)


Paying Taxes to Caesar
15Then the Pharisees went out and laid plans to trap him in his words. 16They sent their disciples to him along with the Herodians. "Teacher," they said, "we know you are a man of integrity and that you teach the way of God in accordance with the truth. You aren't swayed by men, because you pay no attention to who they are. 17Tell us then, what is your opinion? Is it right to pay taxes to Caesar or not?"

18But Jesus, knowing their evil intent, said, "You hypocrites, why are you trying to trap me? 19Show me the coin used for paying the tax." They brought him a denarius, 20and he asked them, "Whose portrait is this? And whose inscription?"

21"Caesar's," they replied.
Then he said to them, "Give to Caesar what is Caesar's, and to God what is God's."

22When they heard this, they were amazed. So they left him and went away.

Good Night

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

It's only Tuesday?!?

This week already feels like it's been 5 days long and it's only Tuesday. Work was busy as usual and the daily office politics and Legislative Session activities had me depleted in short order. I'm not unhappy, just tired. I feel like I'm on a treadmill. Some days I'm performing well, at other times I'm simply not all together. Even when I'm down, I mustn't forget that I'm truly blessed.

I missed Men's Bible Study for the second week in a row and I'm feeling pretty down about it tonight. I ended up taking care of some things at work after hours and although I could have gotten to church, it was already 6:45 and my kids hadn't eaten yet, my wife was stressed out and I elected to stay home instead of rushing to get to the class. What will my group think? What will the pastor think? Am I not putting God first? All kind of doubt and negative questions and thoughts came rushing in. I know it's not God talking this way to me. It's my flesh and the enemy teaming up, trying to break my spirit down.

Have you ever felt this way; knowing you're blessed in your mind, but you're grieving to some extent in your soul? This could be due to not living God's best plan for your life. Whether it be laziness at work, not spending time with your family or just settling for a mediocre existence, something just isn't right. I struggle with this almost daily.

Often I go through periods of working hard, making a difference and feeling fulfilled. And then there are times (more than I care to admit), where I'm just going through the motions. I'm so reactive and overwhelmed that I end up not accomplishing anything- or very little in comparison to the times when I'm progressing. This is a genuine struggle.

There are certain issues I face in life; anger with my children when they don't do what's right, laziness at work and not managing my resources as well as possible. This could include money, time and abilities. Basically, I know I need to be a good steward with everything I've been given. However, I'm more of a 1 talent guy than a 5 or 10 talent servant. That scares me. If you're honest about every area of your life, it might scare you, too. Are you investing everything you have for the kingdom?

Matthew 25:14-30 (New International Version)


14"Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his property to them. 15To one he gave five talents[a] of money, to another two talents, and to another one talent, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. 16The man who had received the five talents went at once and put his money to work and gained five more. 17So also, the one with the two talents gained two more. 18But the man who had received the one talent went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master's money.

19"After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. 20The man who had received the five talents brought the other five. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with five talents. See, I have gained five more.'

21"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'

22"The man with the two talents also came. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with two talents; see, I have gained two more.'

23"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'

24"Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. 25So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.'

26"His master replied, 'You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? 27Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

28" 'Take the talent from him and give it to the one who has the ten talents. 29For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. 30And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.'

Good Night

Monday, February 8, 2010

Quick Night

This is going to be brief. It's well after 10:00 PM and I'm extremely tired. I just don't have the strength to say much, as my eyelids are really fighting to remain closed with each lethargic blink. This is one of those times when my strength is completely gone, but God's strength will sustain me.

Psalm 73:26

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Good Night

Sunday, February 7, 2010

There is so much more to life than what I see

Isn't it wonderful when you experience something that changes the way you look at the world? Sometimes it's the little things that slightly shift your view, while other times epic events unfold to chisel life experience into your soul. It's really something to go along with the flow for years, and then a change reveals just how much of life's gifts you were missing, but never realized it.

Today my lovely wife and I had some errands to run. We were out and about, leaving the kids at home (my eldest is a teenager) so that we could actually take the time to talk and take care of business with minimal distraction. After a couple of stops in North-East Salem, we ended up going to a sushi bar for lunch. Sushi Kyo was the place of choice. I'd seen that name before, in tweets or pings from a friend of mine, so we knew we could trust the quality of the food.

After being seated, my wife and I watched as dozens upon dozens of small plates circulated on a conveyor belt adjacent our booth. I'd never been in a sushi bar before and had only had grocery store sushi one other time, so this was a new experience for me. My wife had recently been on a lunch date with a coworker, so she had to literally show me what to do. It was a wonderful experience. After tasting the contents on nearly a half dozen little plates, I left feeling satisfied and extremely happy. I couldn't believe what I'd been missing for so many years. The thought of selecting food right from your seat as it cruised by was pure novelty. The fact that it tasted so wonderful and different than anything I'd ever had before was eye opening. I love sushi!

After taking care of a few things at the house (tackling far fewer than I intended to do at the eve of the weekend) it was time for a date night. Normally we do this on Saturday evenings, but it was shifted to this evening. Amelia was the movie of choice and we ended up eating Dairy Queen for dinner (I know eating out so often is foolish and unhealthy). Although I didn't agree with much of her lifestyle, Amelia Earhart was a person whom wasn't afraid to live. Several things struck me about her; the first was her determination to do what was in her heart, no matter the cost or negative opposition. The second was her willingness to face her fears and conquer them. I'm certain she lived a life of no regret. That's a full life.

After taking a step back and observing my own life, I can't say that it's barren, but it's not full, either. I'm someplace in the middle. However, as I press in toward God, I know that he'll draw near to me as well- the Bible clearly says this. I believe that it's when we're close with our creator, His nature is to reveal great things. The Bible also tells us that Jesus came to give us abundant life. I take the term 'abundant life' as one that's fulfilled in achieving the purpose God has placed in our heart and living without regret. So, let's receive Jesus' gift of Salvation and follow Him. He'll show us the way to truly live, if we'll only listen.

James 4:8 (New International Version)


Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

John 10:10 (New International Version)

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

By the way, DQ left me feeling boated and sick. I'd have rather had more sushi!

Good Night

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Thank God for Friends

Today started out like many other Saturdays at the Wilson house; my wife and youngest son left for the bowling alley before 9:00 AM as the rest of us stayed behind to have breakfast and halfheartedly get started on the mounting chores from the previous week. However, the latter half of the day ended up being a very special time with some dear friends of ours.

We loaded everyone up in the car at around 3:00 PM and went to the Clem household for some fellowship and an early dinner. Pasta with meatballs (yum!) and some salad with some of the largest fresh sliced mushrooms I've ever seen were on the menu. The afternoon was filled with laughter and honest, heartfelt conversation. We're truly blessed to call this family 'friend'. We love them very much. After dinner, our combined herd formed a caravan to WSFC where we jammed out to some awesome music and song with the rest of the Saturday evening church family. Service was short and a bit unusual, but we learned some things about the overall financial health of the church, as well as how consistently the WSFC family has grown these past 15 years. It's wonderful to have such great friends and family and a church that's moving in a positive direction.

Do you ever think that while Jesus was on earth, he had moments like this? Was Jesus thankful for the network of friends and family that surrounded him at various points of life? I'll bet he was. In fact, Jesus called his disciples 'friends'. He chose them; a motley crew (No, not these guys) of men whom came from many walks of life. He taught them His ways, cared for and nurtured them. Ultimately, He even laid down His life for them (and us). That's pretty amazing. Can you imagine laying your life down like that for the ones you hold dear?

John 15:12-13

This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you. Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

Good Night

Friday, February 5, 2010

TGIF!

After a long day at the Capitol, it's finally over. As of the time of this writing, I'd just been home for about 30 minutes and barely had time to scarf down a few pieces of pizza before settling down to write.

Normally, I'm write about something that the Lord revealed to me that day, and find the associated scripture to back it up. Or, I'd share something that the Holy Spirit pressed upon my heart. But tonight, I don't know what I'm doing. I'm spent. I'm thankful that I'm home. Thankful that dinner was available in short order (Thank you, Pizza Hut!) Thankful that within a couple of hours, I'll be drifting off to sleep in a nice warm bed. In spite of having no direction or point for this evening's blog, I guess I'll just give thanks.

1 Chronicles 29:10

David praised the LORD in the presence of the whole assembly, saying, Praise be to you, O LORD, God of our father Israel, from everlasting to everlasting.

1 Chronicles 16:8 (New International Version)


Give thanks to the LORD, call on his name; make known among the nations what he has done.

1 Chronicles 16:34 (New International Version)

Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.

Psalm 107:31 (New International Version)

Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for men.

I guess the point of this evening is to thank God for every blessing in your life. Anyone can complain about their situation (myself included), but if you carefully examine your life, you'll find many blessings. Do this often and never forget who your source is!

Good Night

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Sick Day

Well, I didn't make it into the office today. I called in sick because my stomach was quite upset and one of my boys was also in bed with a yucky tummy. Had he not been home from school, I likely would have ended up going in to work. Thank goodness for VPN connectivity! I was able to 'work' for a few hours and also take care of my son.

I'm not sure of how God does it; being all places at once (omnipresence), knowing all things (omniscience) and is capable of all things (omnipotent). Still, it's comforting knowing that wherever we are, or whenever we need him, he's there for us. Awesome.

Good Night.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Important

I was listening to an audio book today named RESTORED, from the Daily Audio Bible. In it were the honest, step by step ways to identify, confess and move past harmful deception from the enemy. The audio book covered topics in a form of checklist, of which much of mankind has wrestled with at one time or another. Myself included.

Items included exposure to, or involvement with:

Cults
Ouija Boards
Satanic rituals
Solicitation of mediums or psychics
Tarot cards
Unclean sexual experiences
Anger
Spiritual encounters or enlightenment
Idolatry of money, things, self, etc.
Self-damning lies disguised as our own negative thoughts...

These are just the tip of the iceberg. The point is that most of us have been involved in, or at least exposed to many of these things. Sometimes, we've been exposed by means of a friend or family member. Or, we've been involved with seemingly harmless things while we're young, which turn out to be harmful.

What's my point? It's important to seek out the things in your life which may give the enemy a stronghold. To be truly free, you need to confess and repent of your involvement with these things; speaking it out with your mouth. Then, get rid of any remnant from your home, your routine, etc.

Acts 19:18-20 (New International Version)


Many of those who believed now came and openly confessed their evil deeds. A number who had practiced sorcery brought their scrolls together and burned them publicly. When they calculated the value of the scrolls, the total came to fifty thousand drachmas. In this way the word of the Lord spread widely and grew in power.

Good Night

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Still Walking...

I don't have much to say tonight, other than to ask for the Lord's will in the job interview I'll be attending tomorrow. If God wants me to go to the new job, I pray that it's offered to me. If it's not meant to be mine, I hope that God helps to renew my resolve for the position I currently hold. Either way, I want His will to be done and I want to be successful.

Every job, opportunity or advance I've ever been given has come from the Lord. I rarely elect to move from a job. Usually, I'm forced out due to an office closure, layoff, etc. God always lines something up. Sometimes, he simply presents new opportunity while I'm busy working someplace else. Other times, I'm left wondering what's going on, as bills pile up and money runs out. The changes in my life are always God-led, whether it appears that way or not at the time. Now is the time to let go and trust that the God whom loves me has my best interests at heart. He hasn't brought me this far in life, to let me fall on my head.


Isaiah 30:21

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it."

Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;

Hebrews 13:5 (New International Version)

Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."

Good Night

Monday, February 1, 2010

Monday

I don't have a lot to say tonight. It was a busy day and the kids weren't on their best behavior when they were left alone; my teenager wasn't very level headed, my youngest son was out of control and my daughter ended up becoming a punching bag for them. My heart broke in two, as did their mother's.

I know I don't model physical abuse like this. I've shown poor examples and modeling of how to handle anger, but not to the level that my boys showed their baby sister today. I'm sick about it. If they didn't learn from me, where did this come from? Worse yet- did they learn this from me?

The kids are now in bed. Apologies were made and prayers said, but the pain of having one of your kids abuse another is heartbreaking. What can I do as a dad to make this stop? The boys said that my daughter was being very naughty and wouldn't stop bothering them. Finally, they had enough and tore into her. While I understand their frustration, they crossed a line that should have never been crossed.

How many times have I reacted in anger when I shouldn't have? How many times should I have shown them that when you are frustrated, or when someone attacks you, that you need to keep your cool and not give in to fighting back? I pray tomorrow brings less hurt and more love. As children of God, we all deserve better.

Matthew 5:39

But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also.

Good Night